charlotte2004jd

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 22:46:11 GMT

I have just reread my last entry.Boy, was I on a downer.I think the problem was lack of pills.I have just been diagnosed with Non Coeliac Gluten Syndrome and have been gluten free for three weeks now.I had been feeling so much better,that I foolishly decided I didn't need my Loxamine any longer and had knocked it on the head.You would think that at my age I would know better than to stop taking medications suddenly.Me bad.
However,I'm back on the pills and feeling so good.
Went to Merrie and Shaun's wedding Saturday.Absolutely gorgeous.The weather was glorious and Waiheke was a treat.However I was a bit naughty.Had a couple of tablespoons of tabbouleh with dinner and a tiny piece of crumb base with cheesecake for dessert.Suffered the next day.I hadn't really realized how grotty I have felt most of my life,until then.After just three weeks I feel so different,more energy,less depressed ,polymyalgia not quite so bad,but Sunday I was nearly back to the way I had been.
Two days on and am feeling good again.Long may it continue.
Started a sale at the shop today.We have to get rid of some stock before stocktaking,plus we want money.
Spread the word
Market Books Sale
10 - 80% off everything in store.

I hate my life

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 02:55:23 GMT

I really do.I want to find a cave somewhere and take all my books and hibernate for ever(Okay,I would propbably need several caves,but you get the picture.)
I can do nothing right,my ideas are all stupid,and I really should be in a psychiatric ward somewhere.
The web site is a waste of money,I am wasting too much on Abe every month,and I'm too lazy to do any work in the shop,let alone at home.
If I didn't waste so much time playing on the computer,the shop would be running a lot smoother,and I could spend a bit of time listing stuff on trademe.
I'm a waste of space,and I should go and tell my psychiatrist the pills aren't working any more.
This was basically all because I didn't fully agree with his latest brilliant scheme,which actually I do agree with to a major degree.
We have already started selling to schools via a commission agent,but "We" feel it would be a really good idea to do it all ourselves.The cold calling on the schools,all over the country,the packing ,invoicing,as well as everything else we have to do in life.
I guess I am just on a real down at the moment,so nothing he suggests will be right,but I get so tired of all the chopping and changing about the direction we are going in.
I really thought we had it sorted out the website,Abe,TradeMe,possibly Ebay,which we could do from home,and actually enjoy ourselves for once.Get to see the family occasionally,by going down to Auckland once in a while,although that might have been pushing it.We would get to see Nick and Rachel,then we would have to come home.To hell with my family,I get the impression they don't really count.It was a real struggle to get to see Scott and Emma last year,and there was no way we could stay down overnight.
Ignore me.I'm just having a bad day.

Merry Christmas

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 02:33:24 GMT

It's ages since I have written anything,but I just had to write a wish all my friends a very Merry Christmas and a wonderful holiday season.

I have just had lunch and it is back to the madhouse which has finally started.

11.00pm church service tonight (first for many,many years) then tomorrow just blob all day,gearing up for Boxing Day,which will hopefully be crazy as well.
Anybody want to buy a bookshop so I can have a holiday.
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY

Oh I am so clever

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 00:50:51 GMT

Yahoo.I just won Von's contest..I don't enter many contests because I never win,but his book has struck a real chord with me.Tried a few names with no luck,then tried my own name,and I WON. Cool print on its way to me YAAYY.

My Scott with his INDY Milk

Mon, 26 May 2008 01:37:34 GMT

I have actually managed to post a photo.I just spoke to Ron and Glenys.They are so totally over the moon.
I still can't believe he's won.

YAHOOO YAAYY YIPPEEEE

Mon, 26 May 2008 00:47:11 GMT

Very proud aunty Jude here.My clever little nephew Scott has just WON the Indy 500.We were late for work this morning.Had to stay to listen to the result,just a shame we couldn't watch.Have been trying all morning to get hold of Ron,but no joy yet.Will keep on trying.Just realised I need a decent photo of him.

Sun, 20 Apr 2008 23:35:51 GMT

Tanks to Aumtattoo for this

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open it to page 161.
3. Find the fifth sentence.,
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't search around and look for the coolest book you can find. Use what's actually next to you.

-----This brings us once again to the all-important question of inbreeding,which has been alluded to above,when a reference was made to the remarkable success of Mr Christopher Wilson.----------

Bye Bye Tom

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 02:04:35 GMT

Tim's second son Tom left today for a six month tour of duty in Afghanistan.Very sorry to see him go,but he is so looking forward to it.This is his first overseas posting,apart from a couple of weeks in Singapore on exercises,and he is really excited.His partner, India ,isn't too keen,nor are we for that matter,but Amy,Jono and Nathan will be staying with her.Jono is due to enter basic training on either the 7th or 12th of May,so it will a household of women plus baby.I just hope it works out okay.We know what Amy can be like. She is a real little sweety,but still very young.
At least we got to see Tom last weekend,as there was no way we could get down to Ohakea to see him off.
Quite a pleasant day at Wenderholm,shame Pauline and Cliff were there.(No, that's not really very nice.Its only because they tried to talk us into yet another pyramid scheme.)
Even though we don't see him very often,we are still going to miss him.I just hope he comes home safe and well.
Mental note to self --- update this more often.

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 01:58:49 GMT

Back at work,basically normal time.A bad case of Mondayitis for both of us this morning.Had a wonderful day off yesterday.Went into the hardware store earlyish and got a few things for the garden,then spent the rest of the day pottering.Planted a blueberry in the orchard,started on the vege beds then started pulling weeds from the front yard,before we put another load of gravel down to replace what got washed away in the floods.Found four chooks nests,cut down a kapok plant and an inkweed tree.I am ashamed of the lack of basic weeding I haven't done since we have been in this shop.All changed now that we won't be working Sundays anymore YAY.
Quietish day in the shop today,means we are actually getting some work done for a change, yeah right.
I have an internet connection again,so I am playing a little bit.

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 22:41:17 GMT

Hi Sennydreadful,welcome to my world

Happy New Year

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 22:12:08 GMT

Happy New Year everyone.
It is the most glorious weather here,hot ,sunny and not humid at all,which for Whangarei is amazing.
We have been slacking at the shop a little,opening late and closing early,and the last couple of days have taken to going outside at home with a couple of foam mattresses and lying under Oaklet,our baby oak tree.We planted it when it was about 1 foot high,and now it would stand about 18 feet.We are very proud parents.The acorns we collected from our South Island trip about 6 years ago,(our last holiday) are now between one and three feet high,and we can actually start to see the formation of the new drive.
Tom,Nick and Rachel were up on New Years day.They worked so hard on the property.I think this was the best christmas present they have ever given their father.
I'm not sure how I am going to do it but this year I'm going to not get depresseed,I'm not going to let Tim get me down,and starting today ,(I hope) I am going to start gardening again.Santa gave me a neat book on homegrown foods and it has really inspired me again.This is the first time in 6 or 7 years I have actually wanted to get out and do something
Quite busy in the shop at the moment.Our first trading day for the new year we were up on last year,so lets hope it continues.

Merry Christmas

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 23:12:04 GMT

A real quick Merry Christmas to everyone who might read this.

Also happy Hanukah,or whatever other holiday you may celebrate.May the coming year be very good for you all.
Lots of Love
Jude

Happy Birthday Big Bro

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 01:33:45 GMT

Well it's ages since I have posted here.The Arapax is working and I haven't felt so well for years (literally).Prozac was okay,Cipramil was better,but Arapax just knocks their socks off.I have been down a little,but I haven't sunk into a black hole like normal.YAY.
It is terribly quiet at work,Xmas just isn't happening here yet,but nearly everyone else that I have spoken to,is saying exactly the same thing,and not only in Whangarei,Aucklanders as well.
Shocking weather,thunder and lightning this morning,just rain now and so humid.I am going home early tonight to try and find our tree.I'm sick of no Xmas cheer at home,not even a lot in the shop.
Tim was very upset last night,He bought the corner of the boot door down on my head.Boy did that hurt.Blood streaming down my face and we were off to get Chinese for dinner.I cleaned myself up as best I could in the car,and I don't think I looked too bad.Feel a bit woozy today,but I have been to the doctor and she says just to take it easy for a couple of days.
We are getting some lovely stuff in for Xmas,just have to sell it now

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 00:36:33 GMT

It is an absolutely glorious day today.Far too nice to be inside,and a real change to last night,when we had an amazing electrical storm,and huge winds.It really sounded as though the roof was going to blow off the house at one stage.
I have decided that I am going to lose weight (Yeah right),and have actually started working towards that goal.I can't go to Traci's wedding,but I can lose weight for it,so I have three months to make a difference,then a couple of months to Scott and Emma's wedding,and I should be halfway to my goal by then.
I wonder if I will ever get to meet Emma.
Ah, the difference a bit of sun makes,you feel you can do anything.

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 03:22:05 GMT

I am a nearly pill free zone these days.The only thing I have to take is prednisone,and if I want to keep walking,I think it is probably a good idea for me not to stop taking those,however,no more antidepressants,and I am going to keep going without them if it kills me,and quite frankly the way today has gone,it probably will,either that or I will do Tim in.
Things can only get better though,and in all honesty I think that they are.
The sun is shining,summer is slowly getting here,the ground is starting to dry out all is right with the world.
I have been doing the exercise for my ears sort of religiously,and the dizziness is starting to ease off.
The vertigo still hits occasionally,particularly if I have been on the computer for any length of time,or if I move my head too quickly,but on the whole things are improving.I don't feel drunk quite as much as I did,unless of course I actually am.
I only got happy the other night.after all we only drank two bottles of Asti,between two of us.
Better go back to work now,and let Tim have his lunch,after all it is 3.30 p.m.
Going to have a late night tonight, working.There are so many books to put away,and so little space into which to put them. We really need rubber walls,so we can push them out a bit more.It is a real shame that we can't afford the shop next door at the moment,but who knows what will happen in the future,After all,we are winning Lotto on Saturday night

Thanks again Moggy

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 04:00:27 GMT

                   JUDE

      adjective
                              Sexually stunning

http://www.quizgalaxy.com/quiz.php?id=83">'How will you be defined in the dictionary?:

Thanks Moggy

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 02:14:35 GMT

http://images.blogthings.com/thefivefactorpersonalitytest/personality.jpg" "
You have low extroversion.
You are quiet and reserved in most social situations.
A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you.
You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people.

Conscientiousness:

You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.

Agreeableness:

You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.

Neuroticism:

You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is medium.
You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.
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I've got a breadmaker

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 02:28:14 GMT

Went to the auction last week and bought a couple of car loads of books,which I have been working on since.Tim rearranged the car to make room for a library's worth this morning,and brought forward a couple of other boxes,that I hadn't seen.A couple of very nice heavy enamel casserole dishes,a couple of clock radios,a tape deck,some Tupperware,an espresso machine which will come to the shop if it works,as I already have one at home,and a bread maker.I have had one before,but it came from a garage sale and it had a broken lid.It still worked,but Iwas never quite sure about it.Now I have another one,which if it workscould be so much fun.Can't wait to get home tonight to try it and the espresso machine.
Dinner is on in the crockpot,only have to cook broccoli to go with it,so I should have time to have a play.
Yay.

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I feel so pleased with my self

Tue, 03 Jul 2007 03:51:53 GMT

I am so clever.I just copied and pasted a blog I wrote for Myspace and copied it into Blogger,complete with picture.
Silly to be so pleased with myself,but I feel quite chuffed.
It is taking me a while,but I am slowly learning how to do things with a computer apart from write emails,and enter books into a data base.Still don't understand the language used,but as long as the end result works who cares.

Harry Potter in window

Mon, 02 Jul 2007 03:02:29 GMT

Had a big banner made advertising Harry7 .Spend $100 dollars and get Harry Free.So far only 1 definite order and a couple of nibbles If they don't want to spend $100 they can still get it for $32.95 instead of the $55 it should be.Fortunately we only got 1 carton,but I must try and remember to order the backlist.
I'm getting utterly sick of the weather,the front yard is just a mud puddle.Found Pretty's eggs the other day.Fortunately they aren't too dirty
Spent all morning cleaning a box of god books.Our beliefs section is going to get a massive boost this afternoon.
Tim has just brought in the first of the boxes from Friday's auction,only 10 more boxes from this carload to go then another carload to pick up.We haven't been to an auction for so long,but boy,did we make up for it on Friday.
We are back to doing seven days ourselves.As much as we need the time off we just can't afford to pay Lulu $15 an hour.Plus if we are here,we get so much more work done.
I have actually cleared out from underneath the tables at the front,so now we have that space for storage of culls
Really must try and get things listed on trademe or on a website
Thing is we need a shop three times the size of what we've got.

It's Cold

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 00:31:27 GMT

It is a beautiful sunny day at the moment,but boy ,it's cold. Amy,Jono and Nathan came up Sunday night.It was great so see tham.Nathan is growing so fast,he's gorgeous,and a really happy babe.They have got themselves hooked up into Usana,through Nick and Kirsty.Trying very hard to suck us in too,but no way.
I'm reading Jeffery Deaver at the moment,The Bone Collector.Thoroughly enjoying it.Will have to read more of him.
Started a blog on Blogger B is for Books but it is really hard to find.Possibly I am doing something wrong,and I will work it out eventually.
It is basically for the shop,about the books I am reading,or anything new that has just come in,or advertising something that may be happening.We shall see.I am working it out as I go.

Lovely,warm,sunny,rainy day

Fri, 22 Jun 2007 03:46:03 GMT

It's a beautiful day today.Well it would be if it could make its' mind up as to what its going to do.Sunny one minute,raining the next.Still it isn't cold.At least it isn't in the shop.According to the thermometer,the temp at the moment is 20 degrees.
It has been a shocking week in the shop,but today there are people sitting all around the place.
Got a couple of glorious books in today on Scotland and Italy.Big coffee table types .Photography only,no text,but the pictures are to die for.I want to go to Scotland and Italy and Provence and New York,and London,and Indianapolis to see my brother and nephew.
We have decided to give ourselves a makeover,Not all at once,but gradually working up to new shelving,a paint job,and possibly splitting into two,new in one shop, used in the other.That way customers won't get confused,maybe,perhaps.I won't hold my breath on that.

Cutting,copying and pasting

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 07:07:05 GMT

I am just learning to copy and paste,and I tried with the poem,but it didn't quite work.Couldn't get rid of the pictures and other extraneous bits.Better luck next time

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 06:43:14 GMT

I found this poem while reading another journal,and it got to me.So often we don't tell people we love them ,and that what they do for us and to us makes us feel so loved and wanted.If I save this and red it over every now and then perhaps I will become a slightly better person towards Tim,Cause I do Love him so much.

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The Things I Meant To Say
by Thomas Beechey

It seems that lately all I have spinning 'round my head are all the itty bitty things I never ever said
So many times I wanted to and countless times I tried,but who knows why? It seems that I kept them locked inside
Days turned to weeks,then months and years,soon a lifetime passed and what remains are endless tears instead of smiles to last
Oh I'd give everything I had for just another day to hold you close and whisper those things I meant to say.

I meant to say "Good morning" each time you awoke; I meant to say "How are you" whenever we spoke
I meant to say "You're special" when no one seemed to care; I meant to say "I thank you" for always being there
I meant to say "I'll help you" no matter what the task; I meant to say "I'll listen" to each question that you'd ask
I meant to say "You helped me" for answers that you'd give; I meant to say "Cause of you" for reasons that I live.

So many things I meant to say but something always got in the way
Now no one's here to hear a word and so these things will not be heard
But they echo daily in my mind and so I find myself resigned
To listen as my conscience sings these intended but unuttered things.

I meant to say "I'm sorry" when I knew I was wrong; I meant to say "Don't worry" when roads ahead seemed long
I meant to say "I'll lead you" when you couldn't find the road; I meant to say "I'll take it" when you couldn't bear the load
I meant to say nothing at all each time that I'd complain; I meant to say "I'll shield you" from every drop of rain
I meant to say "Forgive me" for each tear I made you cry; I meant to say "Please give me one more chance to tell you why."

So many things I meant to say but something always got in the way
Now no one's here to hear a word and so these things will not be heard
What was I thinking? Why'd I wait? I know it now but now's too late
My heart lies bare with broken strings atop a mound of voiceless things.

I meant to say "I'll find it" when all you sought was time; I meant to say "I'll pull you" over each uphill climb
I meant to say "Take my hand" as each road began to slant; I meant to say "Yes you can" when you said you can't
I meant to say "We did it" as we passed each test; I meant to say "It's over" when we'd find time to rest
I meant to say "Here's the key" to secrets that I keep; I meant to say "Dream sweetly" as you closed your eyes to sleep.

So many things I meant to say but something always got in the way
Now no one's here to hear a word and so these things will not be heard
Except by me from the morning sun until the day is finally done
Yes now you're gone and each day brings to mind these never-spoken things.

It seems that lately all I have rolling through my brain are all the teeny weeny things I'll never say again
The things I should have said to the one I was with and all those misspent moments that have faded into myth...
So many things I meant to say but something always got in the way
Now no one's here to hear a word and so these things will not be heard
Sometimes at night your name I'll call to a faded frame on a shaded wall ---
I meant to say "I love you"
I meant to say "I love you"
I meant to say "I love you"...
And that one hurts the most of all.

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 03:42:35 GMT

The taxman cometh and the taxman giveth,Bless his little heart.Our tax refunds arrived,were banked very quickly,and spent just as quickly on billsStill we now own the stock we have in the shop,and things appear to be picking up a bit.
The cold weather is starting to bite a bit,so the mini hordes are coming in to pick up a bit of winter reading.I must admit I have taken a fair amount home just lately.
Went down to Auckland on the weekend to drop off the cot and see the kids.Real quick trip down and back.Didn't get a chance to get to Borders,cry cry.
I was going to try and talk Tim into going to Starbucks while we were there as well.Next time.
I'm going to try to talk him into going to Matakana this weekend,to have a look at the new bookshop,it is highly unlikely to happen,too much housework.
We really need a housewife.Someone to come home to who will have dinner ready,the laundry done,house tidied,animals fed,yeah right.
What I really want is someone to feed me at the appropriate times with the appropriate weight watchers food,and not let me eat anything I shouldn't.